بچه كه بودم ، مامانم مي گفت اگه 40 روز صبح زود قبل از اذون در خونه رو آب و جارو كني روز چهلم حضرت خضر مياد. مياد ولي تو نمي شناسيش. هميشه وقتي ميره ميفهمي خودش بوده. بعضي ها هم اون قدر از ديدنش ميترسن كه طاقت نمي يارن ...
مامانم می گفت بعضي موقع ها هم حضرت خضر مث يه فقير مياد در خونت. مياد ولي تو نمي شناسيش. هميشه وقتي ميره ميفهمي خودش بوده. ميگفت نشونش هم اينه كه چيزي را كه بهش دادي با خودش نمي بره. همونجا پشت در پيداش ميكني. اما ديگه خيلي دير شده. اون رفته و تو موندي با يه هديه متبرك كه بايد به ياد اون نگرش داري...
و حالا بعد از اين همه سال از اون روزا، من دنبال يه عشق هميشگي ميگردم. يه خضر زنده كه ميدونم يه جايي همين جاهاست و منتظر نشسته تا ببينه من كي خونه دلمو آب و جارو مي كنم تا بياد و منو عاشق كنه ، منو بي تاب كنه، منو زنده كنه و تازه بفهمم زنده بودن يعني چي...
نكنه بياد و من...
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When I was a child, my mom told me “if a person wake up early at the crack of dawn for forthy days and clean the path in front of the gate, he will see the holy Khezr in the morning of the last day and people usually won`t recognize him until he`s gone. And as some people don’t have the stamina to look at him , he sometimes appears in disguise” She said ,” sometimes like a poor man, sometimes like an old man .but of course there is a sign to recognize him ;He usually asks you for something but when he is gone, you find it there by the door. it`s the time you recognize him but it`s usually very late. Yes , you recognize him by the time he has left you with a blessed gift in your hands.”
Now after that those old days ,I have what my mother said to me all in my head and i`m still looking for a permanent love , a love which thousand- year- old khezr brings to me .
I`m sure he is somewhere near and waiting for me to purify my heart and soul so he can show up and help me feel the true love . he is waiting to come and bring love to me ,to make me intoxicated ,to give meaning to this empty world of mine and give me the chance to understand the true meaning of life .
but what if he comes and I am asleep ! what if he comes and I …
